Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Will I ever have a day where everything goes my way?

Heads up. . . I'm feeling a bit self-indulgent and mopey. . . you've been warned.

So, really can't talk for long. I'm so royally behind in all I need to get done that it's scary. All my friends are saying, "sure, we've heard that before" but I swear, this is sooooo much worse. I have a show in less than 3 weeks and I'm not even close to ready and what's worse is that, other than to worry, I can't even seem to motivate myself to care. I have no new ideas. No worthwhile creative thoughts. I'm at a complete loss. And now I'm stuck, deer in the headlights style, with a deadline and little product. I'll admit it. . . I'm scared. Scared of the more and more likely failure that will be my show season and scared of what's to come. I have no marketable skills. . . this crafting thing really is it (apart from the even less lucrative music and acting) and I'm just feeling spent. Maybe it will pass. . . I hope it will pass. . . it has to, at least until the end of the year. After that, who knows?

I'm all at sea. . .

Well, I'd better back to work. Wish me luck at actually accomplishing anything.

Hearts and puppies,
erika

6 comments:

Michelle said...

Hang in there! You do wonderful work. You will be fine.

Breezy said...

don't be sad, erika! you are so talented! i'm sure that you will be filled with wonderful inspiration just in the knick of time :)

cathy said...

don't worry erika! sounds like we are in the same boat. i barely have anything ready for felt club and i am totally bummed out. miracles will have to be performed!
hang in there and i know that i will see you at your table filled with all of your cool stuff in a couple of weeks! xo

Stereoette said...

chin up, buttercup... you know i'm rooting for you

nik said...

Buck up, tiger! And let me know if there is absolutely anything I can do for ya's even though I am on the east coast...

erika said...

Thanks all! You all rock!